If not now Marna, when????

For decades I was the queen of ghosting myself. Between kids, a spouse who didn’t always get it, the noise of other people’s opinions, and my own self-doubt, I kept putting me last. I started and quit a hundred times, convincing myself I wasn’t ready or worthy. But here’s the truth: nobody was coming to do it for me. The day I stopped abandoning myself and decided to keep showing up—messy, tired, doubtful and all—was the day everything changed. And if I can do it after decades of excuses, you can too babe.   

I sooooooo want this for you.  

The heartbreak i felt internally about failing myself over and ovvvver again was crushing and demoralizing.  

I knew i was capable.  I knew i was mildly intelligent.  Why the fkkkk could i not show up for myself????    

And honestly, therapy helped, and i recommend to anyone with trauma to seek professional help.   But still i bailed on myself time and again, like wtf bitch, you quit againnnnn????   😒     

Until i didn't. 

I made one choice. 

I had one thought that changed my life. 

If not now, when?